Quitting While I'm Embarrassingly Far Behind

I think it goes without saying but "Ack."

Despite all the work I put into writing and designing it (and how positively thrilled I was to invent a comic with such a premise), I can't seem to get myself to actually draw my current comic project Joe Bivins: Man Genius.

Not willing to give up on it, I have resolved to find an artist. But during the time I'm pretending to look for an artist (my social phobias in the past have prevented this), the comic itself will unfortunately be suspended. I probably will try to, when I get around to it, finish the story I already started by myself, but after that the comic will go dark until I either find an artist or feel up to drawing it myself again.

Now those of us familiar with webcomics (and I know the two or three specific people who read my blog regularly all fit into that category) know that comics suddenly going dark are all too common, most of my favorite comics have either gone dark for extended periods with little or no notice or have stopped altogether after long periods of inactivity. Now most of the time this is because webcomic creators are by and large not that committed to their craft, after all webcomicking (like most of the internet's fledgling art forms) is an endeavour with few rewards besides the approval of a few anonymous internet passersby, and webcomickers frequently find themselves too busy to deal with such a self-imposed obligation and decide to let their creations starve while prioritizing their "real lives" (not to get judgmental or anything).

In my case I have no "real life", no obligations besides those I have self-imposed, no business but the business I've neglected and am now dropping; in my case the death of my comics is due to my own continuing state of unraveling. Those familiar with my previous rantings about the sad state of my life will recall up to a point my situation, which has since my last proper updates degraded in some ways (mainly abstract and existential in nature) and in other more concrete ways improved (for instance I have an income again because the government finally agreed with me and all the psychiatrists that I'm too screwed up to work for a living, and also I have cable). At any rate I've never been much of an artist, and have long since given up on trying to be one, and now I feel I can't continue to inexpertly scrawl out the crap I've been making. I'm still pretty confident in my writing abilities and so will continue to write comics but I can't continue to try to draw them (unless I have more ideas for Torando, I mean those pretty much draw themselves, huh?)

Anyway I'm going to try to update the Blog more since I can no longer rationalize neglecting it because I'm working on the comic.

So I'm looking for an artist now. That should go well, seeking and then working with someone, being completely socially inept as I am (and I'm not exaggerating whenever I say that, I seriously am virtually useless these days in one-on-one interactions whether in person or separated by some technological contraption.) Stay tuned readers for yet another spectacular failure!